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Who Knew?

Who knows the things I need to know, and why don’t I know them now?  The slow revealing of wisdom is a process that can lead to anxiety.  I can’t stand not having the right words to say, at the right time.  I want to be focused and wise, true and just, every single time I speak,  [...]

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Defining Yourself

God,
      You are paramount.  It’s all about You.  You created the world, you recreated me.  I will try for the life of me to live like the way you died for me.  I know I’ll fail at times.  But you can pick me back up, and get me going again.
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      I have asked myself way [...]

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     This should be pretty straight-forward….If you love someone, you will do things for them you wouldn’t normally do.  But not b/c you force yourself to just to make them happy, it’s b/c you naturally want to.
     For instance, today I wanted to do the dishes for Nicole.  I don’t like doing dishes.  I didn’t [...]

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The Sin of Sloth

God, if there is one sin I’m most guilty of, it’s this one.  Please forgive me for my past, and help me into the future as I try to correct this disgusting sin in myself.  Help me use my past to project me forward.  I know you will give me the opportunities to prove myself, [...]

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etails. God likes to hide himself, but that’s where God proves himself. Think of how incredibly detailed this entire place is. If you just really contemplate on how detailed (for instance) our bodies are. Every organ in every specific place that makes you work. And past that, there’s an atomic structure that just so happens to work. Think of how big the universe is (actually, not just ya, it’s big, what about it).

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Where is the universal truth? Is it love every one? Make this planet green? Save the whales? Ride the wave? “If you can dream it, you can do it!”? WTF?

Seriously? That’s the problem with my head, I go over and over and over the facts of where I am, who I’ve been and how in the crap I’m gonna make it into someone who’s worth SOME kind of merit. As if I’m not some sort of human/zombie jello mold this world has conformed me into. I just want answers. Answers to every question I ever have. Duh! How much easier can that get?

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Gradual Poetry Pt II

As I’m swimming in the weeds of a grounded journey, I’m trying to gain the overhead perspective. I’m taking every day, whether it’s normal, not so normal, or tragic, stirring it together, pouring in a thousand gallons of the preverbial “WHY?!” and letting it stew until it makes sense. Lately that concoction has been pretty bitter-sweet.

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When we ask ourselves “why?!” out of frustration or desperation as to why we are where we are, or why we are doing what we are doing, maybe we should be asking what is God teaching me?

Just know that God, the greatest writer that there ever was/is/will be is telling your story, and if you let him, you will have your happy ending.

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Do you ever get really frustrated with just the way that you ARE?  Cos if you do, doesn’t it suck horribly?  I’ve been struggling to find out how my mind actually works.  It frustrates me when I shut down in certain situations.  BUT I’m really excited, because recently I found out a great way to [...]

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Ahhh yes a second entry, maybe I’m committing to this blog…
Ok, so basically I’m confused. Pretty much daily. I feel like I have some ducks in a row, then I discover something about myself. I’ve gone my whole life thinking that I have the right intentions for things, or think that I’m [...]

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